An Embracing Presence

I rise up each morning to a beautiful sunrise.
And I am thankful to whomever gave me another day to live.
I look out my window and see the flowers of spring in bloom.
I smile at their effortless and even purposeless beauty.

Simple and ordinary things make me aware of the transcendent.
There is something more here than meets the eyes.
Beauty begs for a source and a purpose.
So do truth and goodness. They can’t all be here by chance.

There is a Source and a Purpose to all of this.
I try to wrap my feeble mind around Him.
But He is too high, too big, too almighty for me to comprehend.
I stand in silent awe before His presence.

So, I just try to catch a glimpse of Him at sunset when the day ends.
I try to catch a whiff of Him as I smell the flowers.
I try to sing His song as I listen to the wind.
I try not to know Him but merely feel the warmth of His embracing Presence.

Praise the Lord, my soul!

~ Psalm 146

As Jesus was teaching in the temple area he said,
“How do the scribes claim that the Christ is the son of David?
David himself, inspired by the Holy Spirit, said:

The Lord said to my lord,
‘Sit at my right hand
until I place your enemies under your feet.’

David himself calls him ‘lord’;
so how is he his son?”
The great crowd heard this with delight.
Mark 12:35-37

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Love Of God And Neighbor

There were reports in the news recently of parthogenesis among black stingrays in the wild. This species is facing extinction and it was a welcome news that some were able to get pregnant asexually. Life will not be denied. It will find a way to preserve itself. This concept was popularized by the first Jurassic Park movie.

Indeed, all living things’ first and most basic instinct is self-preservation. Microorganisms will always strain towards the light, the source of life and energy. Plants will seek a light source to be able to photosynthesize its energy into sustenance. Light is life-giving. It a loving Creator who said, “Let there be light.” And the universe was born. All creation soaks in the light and simply be. Till God created man.

Man, the apex of creation as we know it, is unique in all creation as he alone has wondered and searched for the source of all this light, energy and love. And he comes to the conclusion that the Lord our God is Lord alone, who should be loved for His goodness in creating us. And He should be loved totally and completely with all one’s heart, soul, mind and strength because of this unmerited and improbable gift of life.

All living things struggle for self-preservation. Again, man is unique in all creation in that he finds his ultimate fulfillment in giving his life for others. He lives not for himself alone but man knows that he was made to love the other as much as he loves himself. He was after all made in the image and likeness of his Creator, the God of Love.

Blessed are those who fear the Lord.
~ Psalm 128

One of the scribes came to Jesus and asked him,
“Which is the first of all the commandments?”
Jesus replied, “The first is this:
Hear, O Israel!
The Lord our God is Lord alone!
You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart,
with all your soul, with all your mind,
and with all your strength.

The second is this:
You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
There is no other commandment greater than these.”
Mark 12:28-34

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Living With Mystery

I heard today of the death of a dear friend. He was a devoted son, a deeply caring brother and a totally loving father. And yet, his marriage did not work out.

I have a priest friend who worked during most of his priestly life in the family ministry, helping couples and their families, specially the troubled ones. And yet, in his own family of origin, all the marriages of his siblings, but for one, were all troubled.

Then there was the top pulmonologist I knew who could not save his son from dying from asthma; or the lady doctor who died giving birth to her first born; or the cardiologist who died of a heart attack during a convention of leading cardiologists.

Life is a mystery and full of unanswered questions. There are some with obvious answers and yet we seem powerless to address them.

Like, we have the resources and the technology to wipe out poverty and the most common diseases and yet we don’t. It is not that we cannot. It is simply we will not.

Like, the US spends more per capita on those in prisons than on students who are in school. There are billions of dollars available for big banks in distress; while students are gouged to pay for their student loans.

Like, we know we are thrashing the planet to the point of poisoning the environment and yet, we will not change our profligate and destructive ways to heal the world. There are even those who would deny the degradation of the earth is happening at all.

We have lost our capacity to be awed by the mysterious. Our hearts have become calcified into stones and our eyes eyes blinded by the fancy lights of our own making. I pray that we recover our hearts of flesh and that our eyes may see the true light.

To you, O Lord, I lift my soul.
~ Psalm 25

Jesus said to them, “Are you not misled
because you do not know the Scriptures or the power of God?
When they rise from the dead,
they neither marry nor are given in marriage,
but they are like the angels in heaven.
As for the dead being raised,
have you not read in the Book of Moses,
in the passage about the bush, how God told him,
I am the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac,
and the God of Jacob?

He is not God of the dead but of the living.
You are greatly misled.”

Mark 12:18-27

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Love And the Layers of Our Existence

I sometimes imagine life as an onion, made up of layers upon layers of experiences, awareness and understanding.  My personality is made up of layers of  experiences and learning I have gone through in my  life. The environment I live in is made up of different layers of the atmosphere and the ecology that make for a livable space.

Man’s understanding and appreciation of the world around him is also expressed in various layers. The sciences help us describe and understand the reality around us. Literature and the arts help us give form and substance to the beauty we see around us. Philosophy and ethics help us define and defend the truth in our realities. Theology and spirituality help us in out struggle to know and do that which is good and ultimately reach out to the Ultimate Good.

These layers do not describe different realities but one and the same reality. A reality so rich that it cannot be defined nor described uni-dimensionally. Einstein wanted to unify all knowledge and postulated his Unified Field Theory. He had an intuition there is something that unifies everything that is in the world. Here is something he supposedly wrote to his daughter in a letter:

There is an extremely powerful force that, so far, science has not found a formal explanation to. It is a force that includes and governs all others, and is even behind any phenomenon operating in the universe and has not yet been identified by us.

    This universal force is LOVE.
    When scientists looked for a unified theory of the universe they forgot the most      powerful unseen force.

    Love is Light, that enlightens those who give and receive it.
    Love is gravity, because it makes some people feel attracted to others.

    Love is power, because it multiplies the best we have, and allows humanity not     to be extinguished in their blind selfishness. Love unfolds and reveals.

    For love we live and die.
    Love is God and God is Love.

The heart of the just one is firm, trusting in the Lord.
~ Psalm 112

Some Pharisees and Herodians were sent
to Jesus to ensnare him in his speech.
They came and said to him,
“Teacher, we know that you are a truthful man
and that you are not concerned with anyone’s opinion.
You do not regard a person’s status
but teach the way of God in accordance with the truth.
Is it lawful to pay the census tax to Caesar or not?
Should we pay or should we not pay?”
Knowing their hypocrisy he said to them,
“Why are you testing me?
Bring me a denarius to look at.”
They brought one to him and he said to them,
“Whose image and inscription is this?”
They replied to him, “Caesar’s.”
So Jesus said to them,
“Repay to Caesar what belongs to Caesar
and to God what belongs to God.”
They were utterly amazed at him.
Mark 12:13-17

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The Earth Is the Lord’s Vineyard

The earth is God’s vineyard and we are His tenants. Service and care for  the earth is the rent we pay for our stay and usufruct. As stewards of this beautiful place we are to treat it with respect and reverence, preserve and even enhance its beauty and bounty. But we have thrashed, destroyed and wasted the whole place.

We have shorn the mountains of their forest covers. We have gutted the earth of her minerals. We have poisoned the waters with out pollutants. Daily, whole species are disappearing, either poisoned by our wastes or hunted down to extinction or simply dying because of the loss of their habitats.

Still we remain unmindful of our profligate wastes. We keep on producing and acquiring more than what we need out of greed. We would deny others and condemn them to live in want and misery out of selfishness. And when our lifestyles are threatened in any way whatsoever, we are all so willing to do violence to others. It is as if we have a collective desire for self-destruction that we would destroy the very vineyard and garden that sustains us.

We will not be able to destroy the earth. We will merely destroy ourselves by disregarding her, by disrespecting her, by not treating her with reverence. We need to change our ways and our hearts and start taking real good care of the earth before “the owner of the vineyard comes and destroys the tenants and gives the vineyard to others.”

Blessed the man who fears the Lord.
~ Psalm 112

Jesus began to speak to the chief priests, the scribes,
and the elders in parables.
“A man planted a vineyard, put a hedge around it,
dug a wine press, and built a tower.
Then he leased it to tenant farmers and left on a journey.
At the proper time he sent a servant to the tenants
to obtain from them some of the produce of the vineyard.
But they seized him, beat him,
and sent him away empty-handed.
Again he sent them another servant.
And that one they beat over the head and treated shamefully.
He sent yet another whom they killed.
So, too, many others; some they beat, others they killed.” 
Mark 12:1-12

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God’s Self-Revelation

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In the beginning, God said “Let there be light.” And there was life.

Science has proven that bombarding inert matter with light over time will eventually cause life to spring forth. And once alive, all living organisms instinctively seek out the light. The light is the source of energy and therefore of life itself. And every speck of matter contains energy that is equal to its mass multiplied exponentially, via quantum leap, by the speed of light. Thus is light the key to life.

Life, as we know it one earth, has expressed itself in different ways. In the grandeur of nature. From the tiny bacteria to the giant sequoia. From the fish in the ocean to the birds in the air. From the variety of the different living species to the prodigal proliferation of life even in the most unexpected places. From the joy of a new birth and even in the poignancy of death. Looking at all these fill me with awe and wonder. A wondering that gives me goose bumps and even causes my spine to tingle, the hairs on my back to stand up.

I recently came across the article “Why do we experience awe?” by Paul Piff and Dacher Keltner in the New York Times editorials and they observed:

Here’s a curious fact about goose bumps. In many nonhuman mammals, goose bumps — that physiological reaction in which the muscles surrounding hair follicles contract — occur when individuals, along with other members of their species, face a threat. We humans, by contrast, can get goose bumps when we experience awe, that often-positive feeling of being in the presence of something vast that transcends our understanding of the world.

When we stand in awe, we stand before the God who said in the beginning, “Let there be light!” In His Infiniteness, we can never fully know nor comprehend Him. As we have evolved, we have come to know a little more about Him over time. In the early times, He was seen as the Creator and rightly so. Everything there is has come about simply because He spoke the Word. As Lord of creation, He was seen as completely in control of all creation, disposing of people and events much like the early kings and emperors. Things get done or happen merely on His say-so.

Then He took on our life form and became man. God sent His only begotten Son to live among us. Jesus revealed God to us as Father – Source of Life, Abiding Presence and Sustenance, Prodigal in His Love and Generosity towards us. And Christ further taught that He and the Father are one. And when He was with us, He told us of the Father’s great desire to have a loving relationship with us and with one another. And then, He was gone. He left and went back to the Father.

But He promised not to leave us orphans, alone in our struggling in this world. He said He would send the Paraclete, the Holy Spirit, who would keep on teaching us and guiding us in our search for and understanding of God. Through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit among us God continues to be Emmanuel – God is with us.

And so it is we participate in this great cosmic adventure called life and that, standing in wonder before the awesome, we are baptized in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.

Blessed the people the Lord has chosen to be his own.
~ Psalm 33

The eleven disciples went to Galilee,
to the mountain to which Jesus had ordered them.
When they all saw him, they worshiped, but they doubted.
Then Jesus approached and said to them,
“All power in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations,
baptizing them in the name of the Father,
and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,
teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you.
And behold, I am with you always, until the end of the age.”

Matthew 28:16-20

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“I Do Not Know”

“I do not know.”

During my younger years, I wasn’t wont uttering these words. I fancied myself having an answer to all the questions posed to me. I was not inclined to admitting ignorance or lack of knowledge about topics I was expected to be knowledgeable. I would even sometimes come up with just about anything to say just to avoid being found out ignorant. Not knowing or not having the answer simply made me uncomfortable. How I often wished there was already Google then.

It took me quite sometime to realize that there in no shame in not knowing the answer. That there are some questions in life for which there is simply no answer. That saying “I do not know” or even silence is sometimes the better part of wisdom than spoken words. Then there is the knowledge that comes from intellectual assent. And then there is the wisdom that comes from the affirmation of the heart. I learned that answered questions made me look smart but it was the unanswered ones that made me wise and truly human.

But there were times too that , like the Scribes and Pharisees, I have said “I do not know” to avoid the trouble that may come with telling the truth. I would feigning ignorance to evade taking responsibility for or facing the consequences of the truth.

The precepts of the Lord give joy to the heart.
~ Psalm 19

Jesus and his disciples returned once more to Jerusalem.
As he was walking in the temple area,
the chief priests, the scribes, and the elders
approached him and said to him,
“By what authority are you doing these things?
Or who gave you this authority to do them?”
Jesus said to them, “I shall ask you one question.
Answer me, and I will tell you by what authority I do these things.
Was John’s baptism of heavenly or of human origin? Answer me.”
They discussed this among themselves and said,
“If we say, ‘Of heavenly origin,’ he will say,
‘Then why did you not believe him?’
But shall we say, ‘Of human origin’?”–
they feared the crowd,
for they all thought John really was a prophet.
So they said to Jesus in reply, “We do not know.”
Then Jesus said to them,
“Neither shall I tell you by what authority I do these things.”
Mark 11:27-33

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My Belief

It is easy to believe what already conforms to what I know or what I expect to be true. I believe in the goodness of my loved ones. But I guess that is more knowing than believing. I believe the sun will once again rise tomorrow morning. Again, that is knowing the near certitude of that happening. For the possibility of the world just vanishing tomorrow is extremely remote.

Real belief is putting my trust in some reality beyond what my senses can perceive. Is there life over and beyond that which we know on earth? Will I continue to exist beyond my present life? No one has even come back from the dead to tell us there is life after death. But then again, yes there is one person who did come back from that dead and confirmed to me and to everybody that there is life other than this one. He affirmed that deep-seated feeling within me that there is more to life than the present one; that somehow I will live in eternity.

Just as such belief is so contrary to reason and nature, He also taught us many things so contrary to reason and nature but that on deeper reflection indeed make a lot of sense. Forgive those who hate you, He said. But it stands to reason that I should hate those who would do me harm. Yet, it is only in forgiving those who hate me that I can break the cycle of revenge and violence in this world.

He who would lead must serve. Again this is not in the natural order of things. He who leads usually lords it over his followers. Yet again on deeper reflection, it is in giving to others that I receive, in pardoning that I am pardoned and in serving that I am able to fulfill my own needs.

Just as the eternal longings deep in me are a gift; so is the faith to believe in these contradictions and mystery a gift from the Source of my life.

The Lord takes delight in his people.
~ Psalm 149

Jesus said to his disciples in reply, “Have faith in God.
Amen, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain,
‘Be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’
and does not doubt in his heart
but believes that what he says will happen,
it shall be done for him.
Therefore I tell you, all that you ask for in prayer,
believe that you will receive it and it shall be yours.
When you stand to pray,
forgive anyone against whom you have a grievance,
so that your heavenly Father may in turn
forgive you your transgressions.”
Mark 11:11-26

 

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The Jesus Prayer

“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
This is known as the Jesus prayer among our Orthodox brethren.
It is prayed in three ways:
As a “prayer of the heart” in silence in the hesychast method of prayer.
As a continual mental and unceasing prayer of the faithful.
As a brief ejaculatory prayer used to ward off temptations.
These three uses of the prayer are often interrelated and combined.

Bartimaeus, sitting by the roadside, cries out loud:
“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
It is a cry from the heart of a blind desperate man.
As Jesus hears him, He asks:
“What do you want me to do for you?”
The blind man replied to him, “Master, I want to see.”
Jesus told him, ‘Go your way; your faith has saved you.”
Immediately he received his sight.

As I begin the day, before the hustle and bustle sets in
As I end my day, just before sleeps takes over
I pray with all heart and repeatedly
“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
Grateful for all the blessings of life, so undeserved.
Contrite for all my shortcomings in spite of all the blessings.
Awed by the greatness of a God who has brought me into existence.
Offering to God everything that will happen to my life during this day.

There are many moments of weakness during the day.
I want to go good but end up doing the opposite.
There are times I feel like giving up.
There are times I feel like it makes no sense believing.
Or even living.
During such moments of temptation, I pray:
“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
And then I see.
After a while, the temptation passes.
And life goes on as it should.

By the word of the Lord the heavens were made.
~ Psalm 33

As Jesus was leaving Jericho with his disciples and a sizable crowd,
Bartimaeus, a blind man, the son of Timaeus,
sat by the roadside begging.
On hearing that it was Jesus of Nazareth,
he began to cry out and say,
“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
And many rebuked him, telling him to be silent.
But he kept calling out all the more, “Son of David, have pity on me.”
Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.”
So they called the blind man, saying to him,
“Take courage; get up, Jesus is calling you.”
He threw aside his cloak, sprang up, and came to Jesus.
Jesus said to him in reply, “What do you want me to do for you?”
The blind man replied to him, “Master, I want to see.”
Jesus told him, ‘Go your way; your faith has saved you.”
Immediately he received his sight
and followed him on the way.
Mark 10:46-52

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More on Paradoxes and Contradictions

As I grow older, I am becoming more and more aware of the paradoxes and the many contradictions in life. These used to unsettle me during my younger years but now I realize true wisdom comes from being able to live with these. Those who wish to be first must be last. Those who wish to be exulted shall be humbled. Those who who wish to lead must serve. And to gain the fulness of life, one must die.

Daily life is also full of paradoxes and contradictions which we have to live with. People need oxygen to sustain life as we know it. And yet, we keep on destroying our forests and cutting down the trees that give us the oxygen we breathe. How long before we realize and change our self-destructive behavior?

More than half of the world’s protein needs come from the sea. And yet we have made the oceans our garbage dumps. There is a giant garbage patch in the the middle of the Pacific Ocean that is bigger than the entire United States. Fish of all sorts are regularly washed ashore dead from suffocating on some pieces of plastic we have disposed of in the oceans. How long before we kill all life in the waters and realize we are causing our own demise?

We know and proclaim that life is precious, that one human life is worth exerting all efforts to save. And yet, innocent children are killed just because they belong to a different religion. Children are sold into slavery like another commodity with a price tag. And in the affluent countries, children are routinely aborted just because they are not wanted. How long before we truly learn that life is precious we do not have the right to snuff it out for whatever reason?

And yet out of all these paradoxes and contradictions, the Lord ever moves us forward in love and into the light of His kindness.

Show us, O Lord, the light of your kindness.
~ Psalm 79

When the ten heard this, they became indignant at James and John.
Jesus summoned them and said to them,
“You know that those who are recognized as rulers over the Gentiles
lord it over them,
and their great ones make their authority over them felt.
But it shall not be so among you.
Rather, whoever wishes to be great among you will be your servant;
whoever wishes to be first among you will be the slave of all.
For the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve
and to give his life as a ransom for many.”
Mark 10:32-45

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