My faith can sometimes be so weak and shallow that I still want and look for signs and proofs that God exists; that there is life after death and that I am destined for eternal life and happiness with God. Sometimes, I get so caught up in the idea that this life is all there is to existence. After this life, that is it.
Sometimes, my faith is a little stronger and a bit more secure and I acknowledge God’s presence in my life. But then I doubt whether He really cares for me and is looking after me in a very personal and special way. I doubt that He became man for me in particular; that He guides me and abides with me everyday of my life. I still look and search for God’s love and care for me, for His real Presence in my life.
Then there are also moments of grace when I realize that I could never have arrived where I am today or have become who I am today without God’s guiding and abiding presence in my life. During such blessed moments, I see and feel God’s love and presence permeating everything in my life. I see the people in my life as God’s angels bringing to me His message of love. I see everything and everyone around me suffused with God’s loving Presence.
Sometimes, I struggle to remind myself of such moments of grace. Sometimes, such moments just break into my awareness and consciousness unbidden and unexpected. At all times, I keep the name of the Lord upon my lips
To the upright I will show the saving power of God.
Some of the scribes and Pharisees said to Jesus,
“Teacher, we wish to see a sign from you.”
He said to them in reply,
“An evil and unfaithful generation seeks a sign,
but no sign will be given it
except the sign of Jonah the prophet.
Just as Jonah was in the belly of the whale three days and three nights,
so will the Son of Man be in the heart of the earth
three days and three nights.”
Matthew 12:38-40