The Rainbow Connection

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Nothing stirs the hopes, dreams and excitement in the human heart than the sight of a rainbow.

Rainbows come after the rains.
And rain comes with clouds,

 

We all dream of a world where there would be “no more tears”,
a world where people would live in peace and harmony.
It is the rainbow connection.

I see glimpses of such heaven as when I watch Jonathan
growing in age and wisdom right before my eyes
or Jane snuggling up to my lap to watch her favorite TV show,
or just singing and dancing my funny songs to put Maia to sleep.
Literally, heaven on earth. Fills me with hope, dreams and excitement.
Yet, there is still a lot of pain and sufferings in the world.
I see a lot of greed, selfishness and pride in myself,
in the world.
Could pain and sufferings but be signposts on our way to a new earth?
The rainbow connection?

Today, I pray:
‘Jesus, you often speak about having to suffer.
May I have the courage to bear patiently the crosses that life sends me.
May I believe that unavoidable suffering, patiently endured,
brings good to the world, as your death did.’

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Fears


IMG_1197.JPGWhat am I most afraid of?
When I was young I was afraid of the dark.
I was afraid of whatever ghoulish creatures might be lurking there.
I was afraid of getting lost,
of not being able to go back home.

These days, I am afraid of getting hurt,
not being appreciated,
not being of value or help to others specially to those I love,
being alone and isolated,
not accomplishing anything of significance.
And these are ghosts scarier than the ghoulish creatures from my childhood,
more frightening than getting lost and not being able to come home.

Why am I afraid?
Because I might not be able to handle the pain and suffering
and I might be broken beyond healing.
But isn’t fear merely a phantom?
Like a child afraid of the dark,
aren’t my fears mere shadows
born out of my loneliness or even selfishness?

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Life Is a Gift But Happiness Is a Choice

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I am such a glutton for admiration and affirmation, wanting to be constantly praised. And recently, I had to go through a series of bouts of doubts and depression because of this insatiable thirst for ego-stroking.

I withdrew from the world and even from people I loved, hoping they will come forth and lead me back to normalcy. I was hoping they’s notice “something was wrong: with me and “nurse” me back to “health” with their care and attention, their hugs and kisses. Instead, they gave me room to allow me to sort things out for myself.

I withdrew from social media, even proudly announcing that social media has been a bad addiction for me and that I was quitting it cold turkey. I was hoping that there would be an outcry for me to come back and continue sharing my “thoughts, inspirations, and wisdom” online. People hardly noticed and they went on with their lives, totally oblivious to how I wanted to be noticed by my absence.

I don’t deserve praise doing what I am supposed to do. Non laudem merui si vitavi culpam, wrote Horace many centuries ago. Whatever praise and affirmation I get is already more than I deserve. What and who I am, I have received gratuitously. I have done nothing to deserve life. I can either squander that life or make of it something worthwhile and meaningful. And what I become, I do not keep for myself but share it gladly and in happiness with the people with and around me. My life is indeed a gift but my happiness is my own to create and to share with others.

Work out your salvation with fear and trembling.
For God is the one who, for his good purpose,
works in you both to desire and to work.
Do everything without grumbling or questioning,
that you may be blameless and innocent,
children of God without blemish
in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation,
among whom you shine like lights in the world,

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From Our Source And Back

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Following Jesus often sounds foolish and foolhardy
in the face of the self-serving pragmatism of the world.
And yet, his way seems to me the only way
the world can save itself from self-destruction.

The world has never had so much material goods as in the present times;
and yet there are billions who survive on less than a dollar day.
Who will feed the hungry, clothe the naked and welcome the homeless?
Not the bankers nor traders in Wall street for sure
but those who respond and resonate with the call of Jesus for love and generosity.

There has never been a more interconnectedness in the world
than the one we are living in today;
and yet we are kept apart from one another
by so much anger, hatred, violence and the desire for revenge.
Who will stop the cycle of violence so that we can live in peace and harmony?
Not world leaders who foment the anger and hatred even among their own people;
but those who listen and follow the call of Jesus for peace and forgiveness.

There world has never enjoyed so much material comforts and luxuries as today;
and yet there has never been as much pain, anguish and suffering in the world.
Who will ease the pain and bind the wounds to make us whole and holy again?
Not those who wallow in comfort, luxury and sofalarity;
but those who take up their cross daily to live simple lives
dedicated to serving and loving others.

Just as the mountain stream cascades from its spring
to flow and rejoin its vast source – the ocean,
The right path for us is also pretty much obvious:
but obviously one that is not often taken.

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Act And Potency

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I am in Kuala Lumpur at the moment and I am turning green with envy. My sentiment, of course, is why can’t my own country be as progressive, as clean, as well-planned as this cosmopolitan metropolis at the muddy confluence (hence the name) of the Gombak and Klang rivers. There is a palpable vibrancy that reflects the optimism and confidence of the people. It is a beautiful place to live in and the residents have many reason to be proud of their city.

The day I arrived here in KL, I also came across an article about the twenty best countries around the world to invest in now. And guess which country topped the list. The Philippines! I should have been happy and more optimistic and confident about my country. Instead, I was sad. Very sad that there is a such a great chasm between what is actual and potential. Having just moved back to the country recently, I can also sense the palpable energy in the Metro Manila. But it is more of panic, urgency, and a rage that tries to make both ends meet, to just survive today to get to tomorrow, to just hang in there until the present storm(s) blow over. Yet, through it all, people can still smile, always hopeful that there is a better tomorrow in store for them, for us.

Between act and potency is intentionality, a reason for being, a cause for a happening to occur. I get the feeling that we are a people confused about what we want, not clear on what we value, unable to articulate what we want as a people. And to make matters worse, we do not have thought leaders who will articulate our national intentions, no moral leaders who will define what is important to us,  no political leaders who will inspire us to make gladsome changes happen. And this has been our history as a people.

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Beauty Over And Out Of Ugly

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This is a burl.
A burl is a rounded knotty growth on a tree,
seen by many as an imperfection,
and maybe even as a symptom of a disease or
the sign of a faulty growth.
But in the hands of an artist, a burl is an invitation to create beauty,
giving an attractive figure when polished
and used especially for handcrafted objects and veneers.

I am an imperfect person,
given to sinning, weakness a host of imperfections.
By myself, I am seen by many as ugly and hideous as a burl.
But in the hands of the Divine Artist,
I can be a spirit of beauty that can give joy forever.

I can choose to live by what the world seems to go by: what is in it for me?
Or, I can choose to live my life in generosity
– to give and not to count the cost,
– to labor and not ask for reward.
The more time I spend in silence and prayer,
the more I am prodded to live my life for others,
rather than living it for myself alone.
So, the choice for me is pretty obvious.

Oh, but there are times of temptations
when I would just want to wallow in selfish gratification;
or just to give up trying, doubting if my efforts are worth anything;
or succumbing to the blandishments of the question
most everybody else seems to be asking – what is in it for me.

I must pray and must pray without ceasing
– for the grace of generosity, faith, perseverance, humility, charity.
Until I come into the fullness of all the relationships that sustain and fortify me.
And like the burl, I might even be the source of new life and inspiration.
Remember paradox and mystery.

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Win-Win Is The Only Way

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Why is it that evil people seem to prosper and good men suffer?
Is it because being good is often thought to be the same as being weak or naive?
Of having a Lose-Win mentality?
Others go for Win-Lose
and for a while, they seem to be the winners.

Being good is not easy.
It needs Win-Win thinking.
And that requires courage and integrity.
Win-Win is love.
Any other mentality or approach to relationships
will ultimately end up in Lose-Lose.
We all lose in the end.
There is no other way we can come out of life alive
but through Win-Win thinking.

Jesus replied, “The first is this:
Hear, O Israel!
The Lord our God is Lord alone!
You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart,
with all your soul,
with all your mind,
and with all your strength.

The second is this:
You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
There is no other commandment greater than these.”

 

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A Perennial Lesson

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My two favorite times are the changing of the seasons and the ending of each day. I love the the rich blending of colors when seasons change. They match the gamut of the emotions I feel when earth renews herself. I love the end of the day when light separates from the dark. I grow pensive, grateful that another day is done. And, Of course, I love the sunrise when a new day is born.

These beautiful passages of time remind me of a thought and a theme I keep coming back to again and again: life is a paradox; it is a mystery. It is the inexplicable blending of contrasts and contradictions that life is possible and even worthwhile.

Life indeed is a paradox and its deepest truths are a mystery. There are realities that cannot be proven scientifically and some people have concluded that these do not exist, like the soul, or spirit, or life after death or even God. There is no compelling reason why we are here or why I even exist. But because we are here, anything is possible. And because I am here, everything – instead of nothing – is possible.

Some truths are contradictions, like it is in giving that we receive; in pardoning that we are pardoned and in dying that we are born to eternal life; that being slave is to be free and that suffering and pain lead to happiness and joy.

I have learned that the yoke of love and forgiveness is indeed a lighter load than the bitterness and anger that comes with hate and desire for revenge; that the yoke of sharing and generosity is easier to carry than the anxiety and envy that comes with greed and self-centeredness; that being a slave to simplicity and service frees me from the enslavement of and the obsession for material goods an possession.

Yes, Christ and his words make sense and they are indeed the source of life. In today’s Gospel, he proclaims “For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”

But there are times I refuse to listen or to heed his words. A cup full of stale water cannot take in new and fresh water.

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Life After Death Sightings

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These are very hopeful and consoling words from today’s First Reading:

“The souls of the just are in the hand of God,
and no torment shall touch them. . . . ;
because God tried them
and found them worthy of himself.
As gold in the furnace, he proved them,
and as sacrificial offerings he took them to himself.”

I often wonder if men invented heaven to right all the wrongs there are in this life in this valley of tears, and of fears, and of injustice, and of oppression.

I often wonder if there is indeed life after death when everything eventually dies. But there in men a deep longing for justice and a balancing of scores. Why do evil men flourish and the good seem to suffer? Surely, there must be an after-life where oppressors and evil men get their comeuppance. Who will protect the weak from the depredations of the strong? Who will punish the the wicked for the evil they have done unto others? Or, why do some people seem to live all the life in ease and luxury while the many are living in pain and misery? Surely, there must be a time and place where the good and the just shall rejoice and exult.

Yes, there must be life after death, where evildoers and do-gooders all get their just rewards. But isn’t that merely wishful thinking?  Isn’t life after death just a pipe dream?

But even science today affirms everlasting life. Matter and energy never destroyed. They are merely changed into other forms, shape, or configuration. In chemical reactions, nothing is lost or destroyed. Everything that goes into such reaction all comes out in one form or another.

I can understand that. Once something is, it can never not be anymore. It lives and goes on forever. But will this consciousness that is Me-I-Myself persist and live on when the material composition that make me up finally disintegrate or rots away? It seems to be so. Embedded deep in men’s consciousness is also the awareness of persistence. All human history attest to this; even though there have always been doubters like me.

There is for years now the SETI project. This project is based on the hypothesis that in this universe of billions of galaxies and trillions of planets; there must be other intelligent beings out there. Till now, the search has come up with nothing, no sightings at all. Similarly, we can hypothesize that because matter is indestructible and eternal, there must be life after death or LAD. And in contrast to the SETI project, there have been many sightings of that LAD have been reported in near-death experiences. The most compelling book I have read on this is Proof of Heaven: A Neurosurgeon’s Journey into the Afterlife by Eben Alexander

‘In the time of their visitation they shall shine,
and shall dart about as sparks through stubble;
they shall judge nations and rule over peoples,
and the LORD shall be their King forever.
Those who trust in him shall understand truth,
and the faithful shall abide with him in love:
because grace and mercy are with his holy ones,
and his care is with his elect.’

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The Eternal WOW!

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We embark on this journey called life
with many other boats on this endless sea.
And as we struggle on through unending strife
We wonder what our life is meant to be.

We are sailing together as seafarers all
Though there are times we are but alone
And when the final bell for us does call
We find we are entirely on our own

The journey is both exciting, arduous and more
There are moments of joy mixed with times of grief
But in the end we finally come to the shore
Some journeys are long and others brief

We come to shore where there are no more poor
For the kingdom of heaven is now theirs
Where mourning has gone out of the door
For heaven has kissed away their cares.

The meek and the humble shall have inherited the earth
The hungry and the thirsty shall have had their fill
The merciful shall see mercy and grace come to birth
And pure hearts shall see God! Oh, what a thrill!

We end our journey where wars and conflicts are gone
There is peace for we are all God’s children now
The eternal day of bliss and happiness has dawned
We shall be living then in the eternal WOW!

 

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