Creation Proclaims The Glory Of God

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I have often realized that there is no compelling reason why I should be here.
There is no irreducible mathematical formula
the answer to which is my particular existence.
In the face of such simple fact, science tells me I am a totally random event,
which conclusion I instinctively and intuitively refuse to accept.

Science also tells me that things/matter tend to be more and more complex.
In the beginning there was just but one singularity.
Then the Big Bang exploded with infinite energy.
After the Big Bang, there were only simple elements, mainly hydrogen and helium.
But matter/creation tends to and progresses to become more and more complex.
And the cosmos came to be/exist.
On earth, rocks and fire and water conspired to bring forth life.
And finally, life acquired a consciousness.
Creation longs for and yearns for fulfillment, completion, perfection.

This is the Law of Entropy. An MIT physicist, Jeremy England, has proposed
the provocative idea that life exists
because the law of increasing entropy
drives matter to acquire lifelike physical properties.
And he arrived at this conclusion
after a series of dry and incomprehensible mathematical computations.

How much more inspiring it is to say
that God created the world,
that the heat and energy being dispersed by entropy
is actually God’s love diffusing throughout the universe.
How awesome it is to see the night sky and wonder at a billion stars
rather than reducing all of these simply into balls of thermonuclear energy.
How wonderful to behold the mountains and the lakes
instead of trying to understand them as
the result of some random climatic or volcanic events.

I love science for the answers and explanations it can give me.
I cling to my faith for things I cannot answer nor explain.
Just as a flower reaches out to the sun,
finding life and nourishment in its warmth,
I reach out for the unreachable, s
eek to know the unknowable
and dare to dream the impossible.
“There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”
Or in science for that matter.

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Love Is The Only Law Of The Universe

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All things by immortal power.
Near or far, to each other linked are,
that thou canst not stir a flower
without troubling of a star.
~ by the poet and mystic, Francis Thompson

I first heard these lines from Fr. Gerard Decaesteker, my Philosophy professor. The truth of these lines and the insights that one can draw from them have so inspired me I have taken them as part of my personal philosophy.

Physics postulates that every electron pulses in sympathetic vibration with another electron somewhere else in the universe. Poets speak the truth when they see the universe in a grain of sand or are drowned by a thousand oceans by penetrating a single drop of water.

Drops of water fall as rain to form a stream which babbles along till it joins a river which always come home to the ocean and then to be taken into clouds to fall again as rain, and all the while sustaining and nourishing life wherever these water drops go. And so does God suffuse the entire creation with his grace.

Physicists, like Einstein and Hawking, have been searching a unified theory or a theory of everything that will explain why there is something instead of nothing. Poets have known it all along. The one and only law that governs existence is love.

It took billions of years for life to emerge. But emerge it did. And it is not at all by chance or accident. It is only the atheist who believes himself an accident. Even the smallest particles, electrons, know they were made for and with another electron to be paired with. And while their movements may seem random, they always pulsate with and seek out their partner.

Electrons were made (or exist), not for themselves alone but for another. That is love in its simplest and purest form. Stated in human language we can easily understand, here is how John expressed it for us:

Beloved, let us love one another,
because love is of God;
everyone who loves is begotten by God and knows God.
Whoever is without love does not know God, for God is love.
In this way the love of God was revealed to us:
God sent his only Son into the world
so that we might have life through him.
In this is love:
not that we have loved God, but that he loved us
and sent his Son as expiation for our sins.

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What A Difference Faith Makes

I do not have to believe that God exists. I know that for a certain.
It is how I understand why there is something instead of nothing,
why we exist instead of not exist.
But I need faith to believe
that this God the Creator knows me as an individual
and loves me personally as I am.

Now what if the Christ I believe in was merely a mortal and not a god at all?
I would still choose to follow him for he has shown me a way to live.
He showed me that a life devoted to serving others
gives depth and meaning to what I do.
He spent his life saving and satisfying people around him.
He taught the great commandment of love,
which is the only sensible choice in a world
gone mad with insane pride and greed.

Thus, to go beyond this possibility that Jesus was just a man,
I need faith to believe that God actually became a man in Jesus Christ,
so that I can know, love and serve him in words and actions
that are intelligible and meaningful to me.

What if the eternal life he promised cannot happen
and life indeed ends in death?
I would still believe in him because he has shown me
that heaven on earth is poosible if we but follow his teachings.
I think of and am grateful for the family and friends
I have in life with whom I share this relationship with him
for it has made my life one cheerful, fulfilling journey.
I would die happy and not mind if there were nothing else after.

Thus, I need faith to believe that this promise of eternal life is true.
Our common belief in Christ have made for many moments of grace and true blessings.
With the gift of Faith, this stoic resignation is transformed
into a joyful expectation of
“the resurrection of the body and the life everlasting!”

“Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me?
The words that I speak to you I do not speak on my own.
The Father who dwells in me is doing his works. 
Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in me,
or else, believe because of the works themselves.”

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The Good Old Days

P1530977There was a time I was puzzled by what the term “good old times” meant. I was young then. I couldn’t imagine how anyone could or would like to look back into the past and revel in it. All those reminiscences, the same old stories, songs sang again and again. What was so good about the old times?

Being young I only wanted to look forward into the future. Dreams to pursue. Adventures to embark on. Goals to achieve. New places to visit. More people to meet. My life was fueled by hopes, expectations, and yes, daring and risks. My life was just starting and I had just embarked on the journey called life. I couldn’t wait to get unmoored and sail out to sea.

That is all gone now. I have lived more years than I have left. Much of what I know and am is somewhere in the past. And yes, I have been longing for the good old days. I am not bitter about the past nor am I sad about where I am. It is just that my idea of adventures has somehow changed and yes, mellowed. Much as I would want to go for miles or days on the road. I now tire easily from too much traveling. I still love adventure but I also hate surprises. I want adventures that I am familiar with. I want to know ahead how thing are going to work out. The future had too much uncertainties for me to want to go there. Instead of longing to sail out and go forth, I want to go home. So, I revel in the good old days where most of the events, places and people are familiar and predictable.

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My Journey Of Life

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It’s a long and winding road, this journey of life.
Sometimes, I walk on the mountain top where it is sunny and exhilarating.
Other times, I walk along a stream down in the valley where it is cool and refreshing.
Sometimes there is a fork on the road and I must choose.
Other times there is a happy confluence of paths, serendipitous moments
when people, places and things just come together and the whole universe makes sense.
Sometimes I walk alone, but always there are people on the same path:
walking with me, passing me by, meeting and greeting me,
offering help, friendship and companionship.
Sometimes the path becomes thorny and even dangerous.
Other times there is no path at all and I may feel lost.
But I just need to remember that
there is always a life-giving and loving Presence by my side.
He’s got us all in the palm of his hands.

The journey is ever new. Every day is different.
Yet, there are recurring themes and places along the journey.
I know the I will pass through life but once.
But there often that eerie feeling that I have been here before.

Sometimes, it seems to me that nothing has changed in my life after all these years.
It seems that I have been fighting the same devils and
struggling with the same problems all the time.
I still hunger for the same pleasures and luxuries.
I still lust for wealth, power and fame. And yes, carnal pleasures.
I am still envious of the success of others.
I believe I have mellowed but I often still come across as aloof and arrogant.
I guess I have been that for so long that I have put on the overbearing looks and actions
even without me meaning to.

I realize now that my life is not just one journey, but several, a series of journeys.
Because I can be hardheaded, I have to learn the same lessons over and over again.
But each time in a different context. Under new circumstances. With new people.
Or, the same people but who, like me, have changed.
And each journey is a quest, each quest a mission,
each mission leading to a new realization and a fresh lesson.
Alongside my yearning for completion and fulfillment is
an on-going struggle between the noble and the ignoble in me:
whether I will choose to do good or wallow in mediocrity,
to move forward or stagnate where I am.
It is the eternal battle between good and evil, between light and darkness,
between love and hate.
As I go through each journey, which are really the phases in my life,
there are nuanced changes in what brings me completion and fulfillment
as well as who the devils and demons that I have to face face and fight,
and the angels and good Samaritans who accompany me and help me along
in this wonderful journey called life.

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Love and the Vine

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Here is one of the fondest memories I have of Jane while she was growing up. This happened when she was about four years old. One chilly morning we brought her to her nursery-school. And as she gave me her usual goodbye hug and kiss, she held on a little bit tighter and whispered: “Lolo, you are warm.” That warmed my heart, to feel so loved with such innocence and unconditionally.

I believe in love even when I do not see it and there is only its warmth to tell me of its presence. There is so much of life we cannot see nor understand but encounter everyday. And often it takes the mind some time to understand what we already know in our heart of hearts. The eagle does not see the wind that lifts it up. Trees only feel the sun that feeds them continuously with energy. And the world is alive with a Presence that cannot be seen but is constantly felt as a life-giving force.

Love is the one and only principle that governs the universe. We came to be because of God’s love. I know that God exists. I believe that He made me, yes me in particular, because of love. That belief helps me make sense of everything happening in and around me. Cut that faith and I am lost and adrift. Might as well not exist anymore. Love is the energy with which the universe is aglow. Cut it off and there is no more universe.

“I am the vine, you are the branches.
Whoever remains in me and I in him will bear much fruit,
because without me you can do nothing.
Anyone who does not remain in me
will be thrown out like a branch and wither;
people will gather them and throw them into a fire
and they will be burned.”

 

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What’s it all about, Alfie Evans?

Cute, angelic, little, lovable Alfie Evans has died. Only yesterday, he was still alive, with the world watching how his poignant drama would unfold. Now the powers of government and medicine conspired to deny him life. Today, he is gone. This morning, his father, Thomas, twitted: My gladiator lay down his shield and gained his wings at 02:30. Pope Francis tweeted that he was deeply moved by the death of little Alfie, expressing the sentiment many are feeling.

What’s it all about, Alfie? Is it just for the moment we live?

Life is not only a precious gift. It is also the only reality we know. If not for life, it does not matter whether the universe, or anything at all, exists or not. If we are not here who cares if there were no galaxies or stars or planets. If we are not alive, nothing is possible. And because we are alive, everything is possible. Thus, for this reason, we must respect and reverence life.

Alfie is but a baby, unable to speak for himself and seen as a burden. He was helpless before the wisdom of respectable people: the doctors, the lawyers, the judge.  It was unconscionable how these honorable men were all in agreement that Alfie did not deserve to live. He was going to die anyway. Why prolong his agony? It is the same thinking that has given way to abortion being acceptable in almost all countries. That euthanasia is increasingly becoming acceptable. That it is legal to execute criminals. That the concepts of just war and preemptive strikes are used to justify the many wars raging in the world today, killing thousands of people and turning millions more into homeless refugees. This is the culture of death, which all Popes of recent times have been preaching against.

And if only fools are kind, Alfie, then I guess it is wise to be cruel.
And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie,
what will you lend on an old golden rule?

So, in this culture of death, who then decides who will die and who will live? Sadly, this decision is often determined by the unholy trinity of wealth, power and fame. It is all about looking out for number one. Every man to himself. Hatred is in control. Anger rules. Greed is in control. Selfishness reigns.

What’s it all about when you sort it out, Alfie?
Are we meant to take more than we give or are we meant to be kind?

There is one and only one, principle that governs the universe. It is love. The universe came to be because of love. We were given the gift of live because of love. And we can live in peace and harmony only through love. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.
~ Martin Luther King Jr.

I know there’s something much more,
Something even non-believers can believe in
I believe in love, Alfie
Without true love we just exist, Alfie
Until you find the love you’ve missed you’re nothing, Alfie

 

Complete lyrics of the song “Alfie:”

What’s it all about, Alfie?
Is it just for the moment we live?
What’s it all about when you sort it out, Alfie?
Are we meant to take more than we give
Or are we meant to be kind?
And if only fools are kind, Alfie
Then I guess it is wise to be cruel
And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie
What will you lend on an old golden rule?
As sure as I believe there’s a heaven above, Alfie
I know there’s something much more,
Something even non-believers can believe in
I believe in love, Alfie
Without true love we just exist, Alfie
Until you find the love you’ve missed you’re nothing, Alfie
When you walk let your heart lead the way
And you’ll find love any day, Alfie
Alfie

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Paradise Lost

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Blink! There are some things that we see and understand in the blink of an eye. Intuitively. These include many spiritual insights: presence, peace, love, care, yearning, joy. These require no rational explanations. We only need to look deeply into ourselves to realize they are true. It is during such moments that it becomes clear to me that love is the only governing principle and law of the universe.

Rational thought, the preferred path of the scientific, often leads to disbelief. Most of science is considered as theories for there is always the possibility of the emergence of new evidence or phenomena that will debunk existing principles. Peters and Waterman, in their landmark best seller In Search of Excellence, identified excessive rationalism as one of the causes of the malaise in mediocre companies often leading to paralysis by analysis.

There is in mankind’s collective memory  a deep longing for a completion and wholeness. A paradise we once had and lost. The Eden we once lived in and left. Literature is replete with stories of our collective desire to regain this lost paradise: Atlantis, Utopia, Shangri-La, Erehwon, Matlock.

God’s revelation in the Paschal mystery of Christ is the announcement and inauguration of this new earth and our coming home to a new paradise.  Here there will be no more weeping and no more tears, giving us solid reasons for hope and joy. And where God’s Word finds roots and bears fruits we see this paradise regained happening here on earth. Peace makers waging peace. Community builders creating oases of love and compassion. Caregivers giving consolation and comfort to the sick, the homeless, the hungry. Teachers opening young minds to the wonder of life.

All we need to do is to look more deeply to realize all of this is coming to pass in fulfillment of God’s unshakable promise.

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A Lasting Brotherhood

A few months back, I wrote about a miracle I had witnessed. It was the story of Lambert. Now his story moves on and this time, another fellow seminarian from our common past enters the picture and becomes  a heartwarming part of the story.

Ed with his lovely wife Lyn

Ed Mendoza and I went together to San Carlos where he was two years my senior. I remembered him very well because he was the favorite student of everybody’s favorite Philosophy professor then, Fr. Gerald Decaesteker or Descartes as he was fondly called. He left the seminary after his college studies and we lost touched with each other. When we moved to the US, I was able to renew my contact with him. The Karlistas in the Bay Area have a very lively brotherhood that is kept alive by our regular get-togethers. Ed was a regular at such gatherings. Sadly, he passed away last March 4, 2018 after a long bout with cancer. He faced his illness with great equanimity and admirable clear-headedness. He was lucid and in full control of his faculties and himself till the very end.

 

Lambert with his patented smil

Lambert also studied in San Carlos Seminary; but he entered after Ed had left. He also finished his college studies and then left. He pursued a career in teaching, then moved on to be a marketing man where he made his mark. He rose to the highest echelons of corporate leadership in the organizations he worked with. He married the beautiful Vilma, with whom he has three children all of whom are now professionals in their own chosen field. Both Lambert and Vilma were active members of Couples for Christ and were involved in various apostolates with various groups and in their parish. Alas, Vilma also succumbed to cancer of the colon in 2007. Since then, Lambert has been living the life of a celibate as a widower.

There is something about studying in the seminary. Something happens to a person that seems to be indelible and becomes part of his personhood, never to be erased. I guess when priests are told on their ordination day, “Tu es sacerdos in aeternum.”, the indelible imprint starts being seared into a man’s character as early as his seminary formation. Ed and Lambert may have left the seminary; but the seminary never left their hearts.
I guess this was especially true of Lambert who has maintained a healthy relationships with people he was in the seminary with. I was in regular contact with my own classmates and close friends and he would often join us when we got together. The picture below is on such occasion. This picture was taken some fourteen years ago during the episcopal ordination of Bishop Francis de Leon. And this photo has a prophetic ring to it.

With Lambert at the Episcopal Ordination of Bishop Francis de Leon

Even then, Lambert would say in jest that should he become a widower, he would probably go back to the seminary to try, finish his priestly formation and get himself ordained a priest. And what do you know, soon after Vilma’s demise, Lambert went into a serious discernment about being a priest. To make a long period of prayers and consultations, Lambert went to finish his theological studies and scouted around for a Bishop who would be willing to ordain him, given his unique and unusual circumstances. And guess who that Bishop is – this same Bishop Francis de Leon. Lambert is now a Deacon and he is scheduled to be ordained a priest on June 1, 2018.
Ed also never quite forgot his life in the seminary. On his death bed, Ed wanted to leave as among his legacy a mass chalice that some deserving priest can use in his ministry. This is a common practice among member of the Knights of Columbus. Ed wanted someone he knew to donate his memorial chalice to. I told him about Lambert. And the two of them got in contact: Lambert in the Philippines and Ed in Texas, USA. And this is the chalice that Ed gifted to Lambert for his ordination to the priesthood.

Mass chalice, Paten and Carrying Case for Rev. Lambert Ramos from Grand Knight Ed Mendoza
This is the ‘Thank You’ note that the very grateful Rev. Lambert wrote to the grieving but at peace widow of Ed, Lynn Mendoza. All the pain, sacrifices and sufferings, all the hopes, dreams and aspirations, all the loving, caring and sharing, all the faith, the hope and the joys of a lasting brotherhood, finally come together and are distilled in this one letter.

The Widow, the Widower and the Chalice

Back in the seminary we called this Vinculum Caritatis.
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Serendipity and Free Will

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Under an electron microscope, there is no difference between my body and the table I am working on. Both are made up of sub-atomic particles. These sub-atomic electrons can be thought of as being a wave of energy and particle of mass. And the strange thing is that one can observe them only as a wave or as a particle, never both at the same time. And according to the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle, you can never know exactly where an atom’s electrons are, only where they are most likely to be. Out of the randomness, there emerges a certain pattern that determines the nature of each atom.

I sometimes wonder, might not this randomness and general unpredictability of electron be a sign of a free will, that they can go or do as they wish? Consider someone observing the earth and us humans. From afar, we would all be acting very randomly and unpredictably because of our free will. We are not as constant and as consistent as, say, the movement of the stars and the planets. Because of our free will, it can be vary hard to predict where we will go or what we will do.

Yet, out of this seeming randomness and unpredictability, a certain pattern emerges that would define what our nature is, who I am. Sometimes, we ourselves are surprised at how things often turn out for the better, beyond our expectation. Various words have used to describe such events: serendipity, synchronicity, convergence, confluence. When tings come together to produce something marvelous.

I think of such event as moments of grace. There is Someone who makes things happen for the better. He tells us through such events that we are not in control. He is. He made us as we now understand the electron. The particle of mass is our body. The wave of energy is our soul or spirit. We are in continuous motion, all tending and converging towards Him. For we have to eventually go back to our Source.

 

“God is in his heaven
All is right with the world.”
~ Pippa’s Song

God walks the earth
To bring us all to heaven.

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