I am aware that it is man’s lot that “by the sweat of your brow you will eat your food until you return to the ground, since from it you were taken; for dust you are and to dust you will return.” I have worked long and hard to be where I am today. I have raged and raged against the dying of the light to get things done and bring in the harvest, to bring home the bacon. I have not buried the talents given me but have used them to yield a hundredfold. I am still amazed and feel truly blessed how a small town boy like me would get this far in this world. I have known what it is to live life in the fast lane.
I have been blessed with sufficiency of material possessions, and then some. But I was never really been attached nor even obsessed by them. I probably could have ended with more than what I have but I was never really that interested in accumulating more than what I needed. I was never fixated upon nor did I cling to any position of prestige or power. Whenever it was time to go – whether of my own volition or due to external forces – I never had a problem about moving on. I sometimes would lose it all and I could still pick up the pieces and get on with my life – happy and meaningful. And through it all, I felt being guided by Someone and I believed I was always where I was meant to be, doing what I was meant to do.
Today, I miss the hustle and bustle of earning a living and pursuing a career. I used to lead and manage hundreds of people. Today, I cannot even lead or manage two hyperactive kids. I used to mobilize and make productive millions in resources. Today, I rarely have more than a few dollars in my pockets. I used to feel important, making decisions that affected many and contributing in a major way to the companies and organizations I worked with. It gave me a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment. Today, everyday seems a monotonous repeat of just another day. This is life in the slow lane, I guess. But I know that I take part in preparing the next, new generation for the future. This is more important than any of the work I have done before for it means continuing and improving the human race into the future.
I have realized that when I tried to cling and be attached to things or persons, I tend to lose them. But when I am open to possibilities, specially considering the fact that others are different from me, I come upon riches that I have not even suspected existed. I merely and completely trust that I am where I am meant to be. I live within the time and space given to me and with the resources at my disposal. I am happy that I have never really wanted for anything that I needed. And then some.
Blessed the people the Lord has chosen to be his own.
Psalm 33
Jesus said to His disciples,
“For to everyone who has,
more will be given and he will grow rich;
but from the one who has not,
even what he has will be taken away.”
Matthew 25:29