I never really see the fullness of reality. I enjoy a beautiful scene and am overcome by emotions. At the same time, something inside me tells me that this is not all there is to reality. I am catching but a glimpse of the fullness of nature. Life is not easy. It is difficult. At the same time, I am overwhelmed by the constant joys and blessings in my life. Knowing my roots and beginnings, I am at a loss to explain how or why I got to where I am now. If what has happened in my life so far is any indication, I am truly excited about what lies ahead in the future. I believe that the best is yet to come. The beauty and the goodness around me and in my life will not just fade away when I come to the end of my life. I will level up to a higher existence.
This has been the recurring realization in my life: everything is a gift. I have done nothing to deserve what I am enjoying now; and often all of these good things are happening in spite of my weakness, mistakes, inconsistencies and failings. Even in my most difficult moments, all I had to do was to call out for help and help always came, often from the most unexpected places and in the most unexpected manner.
In my distress I called upon the Lord, and he heard my voice.
Jesus answered them,
“If I do not perform my Father’s works, do not believe me;
but if I perform them, even if you do not believe me,
believe the works, so that you may realize and understand
that the Father is in me and I am in the Father.”
Then they tried again to arrest him;
but he escaped from their power.
John 10: 31-42