Jesus said to Nicodemus, ‘Do not be astonished that I said to you,
“You must be born from above.”
The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear the sound of it,
but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes.
So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.’
Nicodemus said to him, ‘How can these things be?’
~ John 3:7-15
Yesterday, Mary said “How can this be?”
Today, it is Nicodemus who asks “How can these things be?”
Today, I join them in wonderment as I too try to reflect on their questions.
I remember and reminisce my past and I wonder how, why and who gifted me with life. I did not ask to be, but here I am enjoying the blessings of life. It has been a long, happy, fulfilling journey from the little town of Angeles (then) to the cosmopolitan city of San Jose. I have been surrounded by family and friends I could not have all put together by my own and who have made my life meaningful and worthwhile. It can only be because of the Presence that I believe have been guiding me every step of the way in my life-journey.
I look at my life today and I think about the continuing blessings that are being showered on me and my family. And I ask “What have I done to deserve this happy life I have been enjoying?” The last three months have been specially blessed and happy. We have seen and visited many friends and families to celebrate our shared and common pasts, as well as to make and store new lovely memories to ruminate on in the coming days. The time and space we used to share have for the most part been gone or have changed radically. And yet, the bonds of love we have developed over that space and time remain strong and sweet as ever. It could only because of the God of Love who has always made Himself felt in my daily life.
I am now close to the end of my life-journey and I have less days to enjoy than I have lived. There are times, I think of the possibility that there is nothing more in store for us after this life; that I might be found underserving of any heavenly rewards since I have enjoyed them already here on earth; that at the last moment of my life I fumble and lose everything I have saved for the future. Yet, I do not face the future with fear nor regrets. In fact, I am kinda excited. There is this nagging feeling within me that constantly affirms that even as I approach the end of this journey, the best is yet to come. There will be a grand ending waiting for me that will exceed all my wildest expectations and imaginings. That will be when this Presence that had brought me into life and has been walking this life-journey with me will finally reveal Himself fully to me.