God gave me life and placed me in the middle of a garden He created called Earth. I did nothing to deserve such awesome and infinite love. With a grateful heart, I want to sing praises to Him. I want to change and make better this place he has put me in and everything and everyone in it. But that task is too enormous for finite me.
What I realize is that I can change only myself. For all the goodness that God has given me, I know that I am imperfect, incomplete, given to errors and mistake, conceived and born in sin. The reality is I can change nothing and no one but myself. All the great saints knew they were great sinners and lived their lives in constant and continuous repentance of their sins: St. Peter, St. Augustine of Hippo, St Francis of Assisi, St. Ignatius of Loyola, Mother Teresa of Calcutta. Their sins were always before them, even when they have become changed persons.
When I repent and acknowledge my sinfulness, I have taken the first step to changing myself. Acknowledging my sinfulness and unworthiness, I slowly uncover my true worth and value. And slowly I come to a fulness of life. In changing myself, I change the world around me, including people who would allow me into their lives.
“Lord be merciful to me, a sinner. A heart contrite and humbled, O God, you will not spurn.”
While still more people gathered in the crowd, Jesus said to them,
“This generation is an evil generation;
it seeks a sign, but no sign will be given it,
except the sign of Jonah.
Just as Jonah became a sign to the Ninevites,
so will the Son of Man be to this generation.
Luke 11:29-32