The Lord of the Gaps


“What are you looking for?”
Jesus asked the two followers of John.

What I am looking has many and different names:
happiness, success, eternal life, salvation,
meaning, significance, contribution, fulfillment.
I realize is there are a lot of gaps in me,
a lot missing in my life,
an emptiness that cries for fulfillment,
a shortage that hungers for fullness,
an absence that earnestly yearns for a certain presence.

There are many things I don’t understand.
There are many things I think I need.
There are many dreams I long for.
Whoever brought me here must have kept a vital part of me
that keeps me looking and searching until I come upon him
who has this missing part.
Saint Augustine, the great Father of the Church and also a big-time sinner,
expressed this angst that he also felt,
“You have made us for yourself, O Lord,
and our heart is restless until it finds its rest in thee.”

Then and only then, can I become complete and fulfilled.
And so I am restless until I fully encounter the Lord of the Gaps
and he gives me back my missing part to fill in the gaping emptiness in me.

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2 Responses to The Lord of the Gaps

  1. What do you think is meant by “our heart is restless until it finds its rest in thee” because I think I have found the Lord. I am an active church volunteer and member of a religious organization and yet I have many fears in the face of life’s challenges such as health challenges?

    • My prayer is often for the Lord to still the storms in my heart, tame the tempests in my mind and calm the shakes in my hands. And I often feel like I am talking to a blank wall. Then, I consider my alternatives – the blandishment of wealth, the seduction of fame, the drunkenness of power. And I end up saying along with Peter, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You alone have the words of eternal life.” I then remember my moments of peace and quiet with my Lord.

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