There have been moments in my life when I had a sense of foreboding and of impending doom. There were moments when I felt sad, gloomy, and disappointed for things not going the way I would have wanted them to. But looking back, everything has worked out for the better and in a manner that I could not have managed myself had I been totally in control.
I had a sleepless night when I learned I did not make it to the seminary of my choice and instead had to go to San Carlos. My years in San Carlos have been life changing and I have met there many of my life-long friends today.
I woke crying from my sleep one night during the early days of martial law as I realized that my whole world was crumbling around me. But that traumatic national event has had a profound effect on the rest of my life as it helped me clarify my options and take the decisive steps for my future.
I often felt silly and so out of place attending board meetings and executive sessions during my corporate career. I kept wondering why I was there at all. I have realized that it was not for the bigwigs that I was there but for the many ordinary employees that I have been able to help inspire and develop.
I was dumbfounded when I was fired from a job by a boss I did not have much respect for. Yet, there was no sense of panic but a deep realization that I was again being guided to move forward in my life. Indeed, that experience afforded me the opportunity to better prepare for our later move to the US.
Through it all, I always felt my life was being looked after. There was Someone guiding me along the way. Even when things were not clear or were even difficult, I knew I was where i was supposed to be because of God’s presence in my life. He walks with me. Even now that my daily life is so ordinary, I still thrill at the thought that just around the bend, God has more surprises waiting for me.