Life is a paradox and full of contradictions. People seek to be happy and the happiest people are often found in the poorest of societies. The biggest numbers of sad and unhappy people are often found in rich societies. Affluent nations have the highest suicide rates. People in the US, easily the most powerful country in the world today, live in constant fear and uncertainty – over the economy, about the future and their leaders, about the safety and security of their homes.
There were times in my life I had a lot less than what I have now. Yet, I don’t remember being less happy then. I could have more than what I have now. But I am not sure that will make me happier. I would be happier if I could spend more time with my loved ones. That has nothing to do with what I have and not even what I can give them. Time and presence are enough. I would be happier if I could give and share more with others. Sometimes, I would need money for this. But then again, time and presence are often enough. I would be happier if I could do more and serve others. I may need money for this but more than money, I need to be present and make time for others for me to serve and do things for them. I am happier having more me-time now. But even this me-time is about time and presence.
We have everything we need to be alive and thrive int his world. Yet, people die of hunger in the midst of plenty. Some die of loneliness in the middle of crowds. No wonder people become fearful and afraid in the face of such paradoxes and contradictions. Christ reassures me not to be afraid. And he teaches me to face paradox with yet other paradoxes: dying to gain life, denying myself to find myself, being last to be first, serving others in order to lead. Everything I know and learned about Christ tells me that he is constantly reassuring me. Like, he keeps on telling me: “Don’t worry. I’ve got your back.” But he said it so much more beautifully: “Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground unperceived by your Father. And even the hairs of your head are all counted. So do not be afraid; you are of more value than many sparrows.”
Matthew 10:24-33