December of 2013 was my best December as far back as I can remember. December of 2014 was the most miserable. December 2013, Anabelle and I were busy preparing for Macky’s and Lani’s wedding and catching up with friends we have not seen for a long time and will not see again for a while. December 2014, I got caught up in my own hurts and disappointments and wallowed in self-deprecation, even nursing the pain and misery.
Lesson learned: there is great joy and happiness in giving to others; there is only pain and misery in being too self-engrossed and full of oneself.
As I grow older, my footprint here on earth is getting smaller and smaller. When I was younger, I could really feel my footprint was rather sizable. There were a lot of people I knew. There were a lot of projects I was involved in. My decisions affected a lot of people and may depended on them.
Today, my days are pretty much the same from day to day. I interact with a small group of people everyday and they are always the same. I have a feeling though that I will be remembered most by the things I will be doing these days. I may be decreasing but in that very same process, I am making my loved ones increase. And my faith increases with them.