I have been both seed and the sower.
When I look back at my years, I feel deeply grateful for and humbled by all the blessings that have come into my life. It has been a long way from Angeles in Pampanga to San Jose in California. And every step of the way there have been blessings and fruits unimaginable. Sometimes, I muse that if I had tried a little bit more, I could have so much more. But then again, I have been totally flummoxed by all that had happened in my life to even wish for more. And to think, it all started with a tiny seed. I am thankful to the Sower who planted me.
As I come to the end of the tree of my life, I pray and hope that somehow my trunk will provide lumber for some floors or posts for a home or perhaps be the block from which will emerge a lovely sculpture; that my branches will serve as thatches for a roof that will provide shade and shelter to a family or perhaps serve as fuel to give heat and warmth or help prepare some food; that my leaves and my bark may become some potion to help heal and rejuvenate some tired bodies. I pray that my death be as meaningful as my life has been fruitful.
I am also a sower. I have sown many seeds in my time. I have seen the fruits of my physical seeds unto the second generation. And I am mightily pleased by and proud of what I see. I have also sown seeds in other ways. Through my words and deeds, I have sown seeds among family, friends, colleagues and the many people whose lives I have touched. I pray for my family that the seeds of good deeds and kind words I have shared with them with great devotion and love may live forever in their hearts. I pray that the seeds I have sown in the hearts of friends, whether wittingly or unwittingly, may have made some moments in their lives happier and more memorable or some burdens and problems more bearable. I pray that the seeds I had given to my students, colleagues, clients, customers, comrades, partners, and people who have crossed my path have fallen on rich soil and have borne fruits and yielded a hundred or sixty or thirtyfold.