I often often feel apprehensive when I try to give and be generous.
What if nothing is left for me and I end being the one in need?
What if my present is not wanted nor appreciated?
What if I am only being taken for a ride or being taken advantage of?
It takes learning and practice to become generous.
I need to learn the karmic law: give and it will be given to you.
I must practice what St. Francis prayed for: that it is in giving that we receive.
And above all I must believe that whatever good I do will bear fruit a hundredfold.
The cost of discipleship is very stiff.
“Without cost you have received; without cost you are to give.”
Nothing less than unconditional love, limitless giving.
Just as I am often apprehensive about giving, the first disciples were too.
I guess Peter blurted it out for all subsequent disciples:
“Look, we have left everything and followed you. What then will we have?”
Jesus’ answer was simply:
“Everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields, for my name’s sake, will receive a hundredfold, and will inherit eternal life.”
Frankly, quite enough for me.