I am aware I am nearing the end of my journey. I have lived more years now than I have years left to live. I am in the final quarter of my life. In a way, I feel a certain exhilaration to find out what awaits me at the end of my journey.
The way I have lived my years will now determine how many more years I have to live. I am in pretty good shape but for my heart. I am now paying the wages of a diet rich in fats and cholesterol. These days, I am now more disciplined with my food, exercise and medicines, hopefully stretching out my years some days longer. If it does not work out, I will know I am but reaping what I have sown in my younger years: indulging my sweet tooth have now given me unhealthy teeth; those extra servings of juicy steaks and ribs are now sitting comfortably in my arteries; and much as I would like to go the extra mile, I can only go so far now with my muscles and legs.
I have gathered some resources to now enjoy a pretty comfortable life. I am readier and more openhanded to share what I have. I know I will leave all of these behind when it is time to go. My wish now is to be able to disencumber myself of baggages so that I can travel light on my final journey.
The way I have lived and dealt with others will determine who will be with me till the end of my journey. I have loved and loved deeply and dearly; and I have been truly blessed with loving family and good friends. I would love them to hold my hands when it is time for me to go. And when I am gone, I hope to keep on living in their hearts and memories to bring a smile or a nice warm feeling whenever they would think of me.
It has been a full life. I have learned and am still learning the beauty and truth there in love, forgiveness, compassion and generosity. I wish I had gone the extra mile more often than I did when I was younger. These days, I find that easier to do, in spite of my diminished faculties. It was at times difficult in the past to give or even just lend. But it come easier these days, even when I have less to give, share or lend than before.
It has been a beautiful life. I am filled with gratitude and loving memories. I am ready to move on to the next level but I am no particular hurry. I take life now one day at a time and look forward to what surprises God has in store for me for the day.